i feel so lousy today :(
deep down i have being feeling like this even before i left singapore for cambodia.
i feel like i'm invisible
i feel like i'm a damn ass person that everyone wants to shun away from and just want me to f**k off.
am i that bad? :(
i envied my team mates who had all their friends to send them off
as for me i just stood there like an idiot even though my mom was with me.
i just felt bad because it made me think that all my friends really want me to get out of singapore as soon as possible.
i hate myself !
do they regard me as friend even though i do?
some treated me like shit, as if i own them.
while some just don't want me to be involve in their life.
perhaps it had been my wishful thinking all this while and i'm living in my own lala land...